Today, the theme for Diabetes Blog Week posts is 'what brings me down'. Talking about the moments, days and, for some, weeks when diabetes is making you want to scream, cry or hide away is really important.
During the majority of my teenage years, I went through a lot of times when I would completely ignore my diabetes and never talk about it. There would be many meals eaten which I wouldn't give any insulin for and my body would be flooded with ketones. There were whole days when I wouldn't test my blood sugars at all. At one point, my HbA1c hit 12%. I wasn't in contact with anyone else with type 1 diabetes, and I attempted to deal with that by pretending that I didn't have it either.
Things only began to change when I started blogging 3 years ago and I attended a DAFNE course. I finally felt like I was surrounded by others who understood exactly what I was going through. Most of the time nowadays, the reasons why I'm irritated by diabetes are because I'm putting all my effort into looking after myself, and sometimes what I see on my glucose meter doesn't reflect that. For me, however, this is a better result than the exhaustion and illness I suffered when I paid no attention to my diabetes at all. At least now, when I'm feeling down about it, it shows that I care about my health.
There are numerous aspects of diabetes that get to me, for example like when I'm covered in bruises from injections, or my blood sugars seem to make no sense at all. There will probably always be times when diabetes will try to get the better of me but, when it does, I know where to come. So thank you to the Diabetes Online Community - you have been crucial to my physical and mental health. Because of you guys, I know that whatever aspect of diabetes is bringing me down, I'm not alone.